I usually don't write too much personal stuff about myself on here. But I feel like I'm at a cross roads where I don't know what I believe anymore. I definately don't know the next step to take. I kinda feel like I am getting to a point where I am even "accepting" this disease. Am I losing my will to fight? I don't know. I feel like I have. Or maybe I'm just waiting for something to come along that I believe will really help. I'm not sure. Maybe Bart has just drilled so far into my head that I just am not thinking rationally about it all right now. Could be.
I am giving up on the abx and herbal route for me. But I KNOW it helps others, so in noway am I discouraging anyone from trying things to help themselves, just making this post about me. I feel like those ships have sailed and damage is done now. Maybe a change in diet and some heavy duty spiritual teachings is what I need.
Where to start?